I want to be alone but I'm lonely

I want to be loved but I'm unloveable

I want to be held but I'm holding on to the pain

I want to be dead but I'm scared to die

I want you to love me but I let you love her instead

You tell me you won't let go so I'll let go instead

I told you I didn't want friends

You asked why

Its because when I'm ready to end it and I will be soon I don't won't anyone to be there to hold me back

so please my love let it go

let me go

let love go

let the memories go

let whatever it is that keeps you from staying by my side go

I'm letting go

I know this might not rhyme It's not supposed to I just said what I felt in my soul what I have been feeling.